Chapter 288: Kondo, at the Juvenile Detention Center
Chapter 288: Kondo, at the Juvenile Detention Center
Kondo’s Point of View, Juvenile Detention Center
How long am I supposed to endure this meaningless stretch of time?
Three days ago, I was finally sent to the juvenile detention center. There, they thoroughly searched me to make sure I wasn’t hiding anything. While enduring the humiliation of having my dignity trampled, I was given a brief explanation and shoved into a solitary cell called Seishin Dormitory (Spirit Ward).
They shaved my head into a buzz cut too. Damn it, damn it, damn it.
Apparently, during the first week or so in the juvenile detention center, they place you in solitary confinement to make you recognize your crimes. You’re forced to reflect on your delinquency while undergoing an intelligence test, a health checkup, and interviews.
Private conversation is strictly forbidden. You can’t go out, and you can’t talk to anyone. There’s almost no freedom. Aside from interviews with staff and exercise time that comes once every few days, I’m left to face relentless loneliness.
The only thing I can do is read books, and time just keeps stretching on endlessly.
I feel like I’m going to lose my mind.
But according to the rules, I can’t lie down except during designated sleep hours, and even shouting is impossible. The only sound is the faint rustle of my clothes, and that alone feels like it’s slowly cornering my mind forever. I never thought being unable to do anything could feel this painful.
And the only thing that keeps replaying in my head are the words of that damn lawyer from our last meeting.
“This might end up being our last meeting, so I’ll say this. Kondo-kun, I tried analyzing the reasons behind your delinquency.”
I remember feeling furious. What the hell is this guy talking about? Don’t barge into my mind without permission.
Even when I shouted that, he continued with a calm expression.
“First, your problem behavior may have been a compensatory act to confirm your parents’ love. Whenever you caused trouble, your father would resolve it with money or threats of power to protect appearances. For someone like you, who couldn’t believe in your parents’ affection, that became the only way you could verify it. It’s a bit emotionally unstable, isn’t it?”
I glared at the lawyer who mocked me about everything, staring at him like I’d kill him someday. But he ignored even that and kept talking.
“In the end, even when you achieved excellent results in soccer, even when your academics and looks were outstanding, you still believed your parents wouldn’t pay attention to you. You’re quite sensitive and lonely, aren’t you?”
What do you know!? What do you know!?
Anger boiled up inside me, but I couldn’t move.
“The second reason is jealousy. When I thought about why you treated Aono Eiji-kun like an enemy, that’s the conclusion I reached. You were jealous of him.”
Those words made me reject it instinctively and shout.
“There’s no way I’d be jealous of that dull, pathetic guy.”
“Really? You were envious, weren’t you? He has a good relationship with his family. He’s loved by people who trust him. And he even has a beautiful childhood friend as a girlfriend. His existence must have been dazzling, unbearably dazzling, for someone like you who believes no one truly loves him. That’s why you tried to destroy it. Destroy Aono Eiji-kun.”
“That’s wrong, wrong, wrong!”
“That reaction isn’t denial. It’s affirmation. Kondo-kun, when people are confronted with the truth, they get angry.”
Every word he said dug into my heart.
“You kept pursuing love theft from couples who genuinely loved each other. That too was something you needed to affirm your own existence. You had been pushed so far that unless you convinced yourself love wasn’t something important, you couldn’t hold yourself together.”
I felt sick listening to him calmly explain his off-the-mark analysis. But my body wouldn’t move.
“And the biggest problem is the third one. Human relationships are like facing mirrors. How you see others reflects back at you. For example, you treated girls as nothing more than tools, playthings, or trophies. Looked at from the other side, that means those girls didn’t truly love you either. To them, you were nothing more than a trophy.”
That was the most humiliating truth of all.
I thought of women as tools… but to them, was I nothing more than a tool as well?
“Your delinquency began from a distorted place, and in the end it can only arrive at another distorted place. It simply repeats that negative loop. It’s about time for the meeting to end. I’ll be going now. Goodbye, Kondo Seiji-kun. I hope what I told you today will help your rehabilitation, even if only a little. As they say, good medicine tastes bitter.”
Even remembering it now fills me with a nauseating sense of humiliation.
I’m not that pathetic of a man…
Why is he still so goddamn egotistical? Does he really still think it is not his own fault he is stuck in this situation
ReplyDeleteLike Miyuki, Kondo invents fantasies and convinces others of them, as he did with the idea that he was a great footballer when he was actually mediocre.
DeleteIt's something that escapes reality; he felt he was acting within his "rights," or that he himself had done nothing wrong, that he wasn't to blame, that "the world was to blame."
DeleteHonestly I'm a bit disappointed C*ntdo isn't being beaten up yet but I'm quite happy with how his lawyer dealt with him.
ReplyDeleteI hope he gets beaten up by his former team fr
I hadn't thought of that, his old team should go to reform school too... wow xD
DeleteYou're good.
Yeah they did tried to assault Eri so they will definitely be put into Juvi and once they see C*ntdo it's on SIGHT
DeleteHis Hell is about to reach another peak. I hope he don't drop the soap
ReplyDeletekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
DeleteI always thought Kondo acted the way he did to compensate for something in his relationships with his peers.
ReplyDeleteBut it's also obvious about the girls; they all fit the same profile. Superficial, self-serving girls who wanted him for his money and status, who could be impressed by Tachibana's words.
The only exception is Tachibana herself, who was surely the only one he truly desired and with whom he couldn't be until she used him to get revenge for not being able to win Eiji's heart. That must have wounded his ego even more.
I won't comment on the third paragraph because I didn't quite understand what you were trying to say.
DeleteIt wasn't the girls themselves that Kondo liked to target, but the relationships. He liked to destroy happy relationships, which were the opposite of the superficial relationship his parents had, which was exactly the same relationship he had with the girls. He treated them as objects as a way of asserting himself, of affirming that he and his family were still doing well, that he was doing well and was privileged. He didn't want to acknowledge that he was miserable.
You're right, Kondo sought to destroy relationships as a way of confirming his insecurities. Perhaps this showed that love doesn't exist or that all women are the same.
DeleteBut it's clear he only went after superficial and materialistic girls. Because those were the ones he could attract through what he possessed and Tachibana's words. In other words, he only attacked where he knew he would get results (just like with soccer) – so as not to face the reality that he was trying to convince himself of something that wasn't true.
I mean, the only girl Kondo could be with who didn't fit the profile of all the others (materialistic and easily convinced by Tachibana's words) was Tachibana herself. And she wasn't even with him because she wanted to be with him, but to get over her resentment and use it to hurt Eiji.
He tried to hit on Ai too; was she superficial and materialistic?
DeleteTachibana had a previous relationship with Kondo, something that happened before Eiji appeared. Tachibana liked to play games with Kondo; Tachibana was a sociopath.
Obviously, Ai isn't. That's why she ignored Kondo, and he insulted her and tried to intimidate her. This shows that only the self-serving and superficial ones paid attention to him, since they were the only ones around him (except for Tachibana).
DeleteAs I understand it, she used Kondo since middle school, but only had a "relationship" with him after Eiji's "rejection." That's why he was so happy that she was now paying attention to him like this, because she hadn't done so before.
I don't recall it being mentioned that the physical relationship with Tachibana began after Eiji ignored her.
DeleteThat's what I understand from Tachibana's account, since he links his relationship with Kondo to the conspiracy to hurt Eiji:
Delete"We simply share the same goal. Well, the relationship that began as a release of lust has now become a conspiracy."
If they had something going on before, I wouldn't see it as an extension of that. I think. And Kondo wouldn't be that happy when she calls him either. That's why I think the only time Kondo was with her was after the (imaginary) rejection from Eiji, and it makes Kondo happy because he had a girl who was different from all the other women he'd been with before.
Can't believe Scumji Kondo would become irreversible life, so that's the reason why Eri is always keeping contact and stalking on him, in the end Scumji Kondo made the girls turned into a psycho that they're love have become uncontrollable lust that they don't wanted being separated from him.
ReplyDeleteInstead of them not wanting to separate from him, it's more as if he's encouraging them to slowly destroy their own lives until they have no choice but to chase after him.
DeleteI liked this chapter; everything the lawyer said was something I had already thought about regarding Kondo.
ReplyDeleteEspecially the part about the parents' relationship; I think I could have said more.
But I still want to see more chapters about Kondo in the reformatory. It's funny that last week we commented that all that's missing now are the conclusions. Does the author read our comments? (thinking crazy)
Hahaha, maybe he does, plus people ask him on Twitter and he usually answers a lot.
DeleteI wrote to him to congratulate him on the chapter and asked him today if Kondo would have been less bad if he hadn't met Tachibana, and he answered yes.
I've started to suspect Kondo and Tachibana's lawyers. Could they have been placed there by Ai or Unaki to sabotage the villains' trial?
ReplyDeleteIt's kind of suspicious how they never miss a chance to point out their flaws and failures. The lawyers usually give advice aimed at minimizing guilt or making the criminal seem innocent... I don't know, I find the way these lawyers don't advise them suspicious; it seems like they don't want to get them off the hook. On the contrary, they have a very weak defense.
As a reader, I love it.
If I remember correctly, Kondo's lawyer was hired by Kondo's mother. The lawyer said he didn't want to get involved in her case because it was a lost cause from the start. There's a theory that he was one of Kondo's mother's lovers and that's why he agreed to defend her even though there was no chance of winning.
DeleteThe lawyer from Tachibana is young, so not much is known about him.
Even so, they understand the law and know that public opinion is against them.
DeleteFor example, Kondo's lawyer always provokes him before giving advice; that's the worst thing you can do when giving advice to someone.
When a person gets angry with the speaker, they usually don't listen to the advice, and Kondo could have faced the trial while free if he had feigned remorse.
It was mentioned that he went to reform school for not listening to advice; if the lawyer poked at the wounds before giving the advice, that explains it, especially considering Kondo's personality.
Well, if the lawyer is really Kondo's mother's lover, maybe he wants Kondo locked up for a year or two so she doesn't have to bother taking care of him. When he gets out, Kondo will legally be an adult and will have to fend for himself.
DeleteTachibana's lawyer does seem to be trying to help her, but she doesn't cooperate and insults him out of frustration. I hope they show her in the next chapter; I miss reading about her, and I'd love for her to remember when she knew Eiji and hadn't gone crazy yet.
I don't think Kondo's mother's lovers were in love with her; for starters, she's a middle-aged woman (maybe a trophy wife).
DeleteI always understood that Kondo's mother's lovers were just having fun. I don't think any of them wanted anything long-term with her. Besides, from what little we know about her, she was kind of desperate after losing her source of income; she was unemployed. If she had a (rich) lover willing to have a long-term relationship with her, she wouldn't be in that state.
Tachibana's lawyer has been avoiding important parts of the story to show how well Eiji is doing. Is this necessary for the process?
Honestly, I haven't seen these lawyers being helpful.
I want to see Kondo suffering inside the reformatory, interacting with the other inmates.
Good point. Another option is that Kondo's own mother might want him locked up for a while so she doesn't have to take care of him. In fact, I think that would fit better with what we know about that family.
DeleteAs for Tachibana's lawyer, I suppose it's just so he can find out what's going on outside.
Yes, hopefully we'll see more of Kondo and Tachi. We'll have to see what becomes of them. Tachibana especially; she's dangerous in her own right.
Considering C*ntdo's father is definitely going to prison for everything he has done what you said does makes sense.
DeleteBecause she would have to be responsible for him with his father facing prison time and she won't be free to do anything she wants.
Having him in prison until he's of legal age would mean she doesn't need to take care of him anymore
Considering C*ntdo's father is definitely going to prison for everything he has done what you said does makes sense.
DeleteBecause she would have to be responsible for him with his father facing prison time and she won't be free to do anything she wants.
Having him in prison until he's of legal age would mean she doesn't need to take care of him anymore
Can't help but get some amusement from his lawyer psycho-analyzing him, and comparing his reactions to how the Joker reacted to being psycho-analyzed in Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker.
ReplyDelete"You make me laugh, but only because I think you're kind of pathetic," indeed.
Can't wait for the other Juvenile gives him the taste of his own medicine. Hope the author make it satisfying for it's readers. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteYou know, after this chapter, I can't help but feel bad for Miyuki, she fucked up royally yes, but she was a victim of several jealous people of Eiji including the one friend of her who introduced Cuntdo to her.
ReplyDeleteI think the same.
DeleteStill can't change the fact that she's willingly go after kondo for sex again and again even after the problem arise
DeleteWell, she stop being victim the moment she don't mind throw Eiji under the bus to save her face
DeleteThis is desperation; all that's left for her is Kondo. Trying to maintain the relationship with Kondo is all she has left. This was her trying to escape reality and reaffirm that her choice was right. She wanted to believe that Kondo liked her and that she would still be okay with him. In the chapter where she receives a lecture from Eiji's mother, she says when calling Kondo, "What else do I have left?" This is following a self-destructive path out of desperation.
DeleteI just realized something why was Miyuki hasn't called Kondo's first Name since she already chose him. Pathetic, Miyuki didn't realize that she hasn't called his first name if they are truly in relationship. đŸ˜’
DeleteMiyuki wasn't naive, and she saw that Kondo was a fraud, cruel, and a liar. But Miyuki didn't want to admit her own darkness. As it says here, they used each other. Miyuki and Kondo were very similar, and both used others without hesitation.
DeleteIt's no coincidence that, of all the girls interested in Eiji, Miyuki is the only one who would betray him because a rich boy paid attention to her.
Bueno aunque es causa de sus propias decisiones siento un poco de lastima por miyuki es una mala persona y la cago pero ella fue victima de su circulo social el cual se nos da a entender que todos le tenĂan envidia a Eiji y por eso querĂan destruirlo
ReplyDeleteWell, she's no different, just more cynical and cowardly. Miyuki planned to take advantage of Eiji however she wanted and had no qualms about lying to his face, assaulting him, and ruining his life out of pure selfishness. And worse, even after everything she did against him—betraying him and ruining his life—she was so shameless that she demanded explanations from Ai about why she spent so much time with "her boyfriend."
DeleteEven Tachibana is astonished that Miyuki valued Eiji so little that she betrayed him for trash like Kondo.
Tachibana and Ai say it: Miyuki was always evil at heart, and just like Kondo, she used people.
What a load of bull****. Miyuki is a much better person than Kondo. Get lost, you troll.
DeleteSeem like mr.lawyer is part-time psychologist...oh well, sure not the first time he meet the kind like Kondo
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