Chapter 155 Miyuki and Memories

Miyuki and Memories

Miyuki’s PoV

I cannot die, I cannot apologize, I can only wait for my sentence to be carried out. There is no salvation. Happiness is destroyed by me. There is no one at home. Loneliness invades my heart. I despair that I cannot even escape this suffering.

It was my own fault, and I could do nothing about it. My heart is simply crushed by this feeling of hopelessness.

I stay in my room and casually look around. The remnants of a happier time now pierce my heart like a deadly weapon.

In my room, I have many memories of Eiji.

The cards I played with him.

The first Purikura photo I took with him.

The many photos we took together at entrance and graduation ceremonies and school trips.

The Christmas gifts we exchanged after we became lovers.

The cute empty cans that used to contain the candy he got for White Day.

…I have to throw them away.

The memories of the times when I was truly happy torment me. I opened my desk drawer.

The symbols of my sins are still there.

The birthday present I was supposed to give Eiji. In the end, I couldn’t even give it to him.

Tears welled up in my eyes when I saw it. Why did I say such cruel things that day?

Eiji was naturally angry. He just grabbed my arm, but I blamed the kind man. Only in my own defense…

It was only after I lost him that I realized how much he meant to me. The feeling of loss grew and grew. I wondered how long this feeling would last. A dull pain as if half of my body had been torn off. My heart is screaming.

I flipped through my diary. A secret diary that I used to write in all the time before I started cheating.

I started cheating and I couldn’t write anymore.

I ran away.

The diary from the day Eiji confessed his feelings to me. There are marks where I read it over and over again.

A day of happiness that will be a lasting memory of happiness in my life.

In the diary of that day, a happy girl, buoyed by the heat of that day, was full of dreams and hopes…

Eiji confessed to me. We finally became lovers. I’m happy. I want to live with him forever. If we do that, we will definitely be happy. Even after I graduate from high school, grow up, and become a grandmother, today will still be a special day for me. I will never forget this day.

I want to live a happy life with him forever and ever.

I read the painful text as if even my past self was condemning me. I cannot stop crying.

On that day, I believed that this wish would be granted as a matter of course.

No. If I had not destroyed my own happiness, this wish would definitely have come true.

The day after he confessed his love to me; the day after that, I enjoyed my happy days. Our first walk to school after we became lovers. Our first stopover. Studying for an exam for the first time.

Even those mundane days were glorious.

I wonder why I forgot them. I’m such an idiot.

While I was sobbing my eyes out, the doorbell rang.

Someone was coming…