Chapter 108 Miyuki and Ai on the Rooftop

Miyuki and Ai on the Rooftop

Miyuki’s PoV

“Why, you’re here? Ichijo Ai!”

A face that is so beautiful and a look of melancholy that you can’t help but admire it. She’s so good-looking that, as a woman, I would mistake her for an angel. It makes me so jealous. I found myself resenting her for having everything, including Eiji.

“And why are you here, Amada-san? You were suspended from school. Yet you’re here in your school uniform.”

“That’s …”

I’m clearly in a worse position. So I’m at a loss for words.

“…ah, you’re selfish after all.”

I feel a little resentment at her tone of voice that condemns me like that.

“None of your business! Why are you here? Answer me!!!”

My words are unintentionally strong. She takes a breath and continues.

“I apologize first. I was keeping an eye on you to make sure you were not acting strangely. My lookout reported that you were acting unnaturally, so I expected you here and waited for you.”

I was so scared that my blood ran cold. Why is she so wary of me that she would do such a thing? And why am I so afraid of this junior’s power?

“Why? …”

“Ask yourself. I dare you, you’ve come this far, I know what you were going to do.”

Why, why, why!!!

How can someone as blessed as you understand the pain of being a child of a single mother and what I’m going through right now? Why won’t you let me die? Don’t I have the freedom to die?

“Shut up!!! How can someone as blessed as you understand what I’m going through?”

She turns her scornful eyes on me.

“Yes, that may be true. But you have always been selfish. How much more do you have to pretend to be the heroine of a tragedy to feel satisfied?”

Her words broke my heart into pieces.

“Don’t try to lecture me! Don’t look down on me without knowing how I feel!!!”

“This will not work. Haah, do you understand that if you kill yourself here, Eiji-senpai will be hurt? After being cheated on and betrayed by his childhood friend who has been with him all his life, do you have the right to selfishly hurt his heart? Why can’t you understand such a simple thing when you’re so close to such a kind person? How far will you go in your selfishness? If you were Eiji-senpai’s lover, you should think about him a little. What gives you the right to harm his future? How far do you want to spread his lifelong scars? After all, you didn’t love Eiji-senpai, did you?”

Her heartbreaking words made me feel as if my beliefs were unintentionally crumbling.

“That’s not true … I love Eiji …”

But the compassionate angel easily surpasses even my self-preservation and blows me away with love for Eiji.

“Then how can you make a decision that hurts Eiji-senpai so much? After all, you only think of yourself. So you can make decisions that hurt the people around you without a second thought. Do you really understand how much Eiji-senpai and his mother were hurt when they were betrayed by a girl they considered family? Did your mother bring you up this far to do such a thing? And all by herself? If you take even one step forward from where you are now, you will hurt everyone. I cannot allow you to die on your own. You have no right to choose suicide. Nor do you deserve it. Please stop being so careless with others!!!”

When I am told the truth, my heart gets all mixed up. But I can’t back down. I can’t retreat.

“Shut up, shut up, shut up!!! You don’t even know how I feel!!!”

But she denies me even more.

“So, do you know about him? Do you know how he feels? I’ve tried very hard to find out about him. But you don’t even try to get to know him. You don’t know anything about him. You know, if it weren’t for Eiji-senpai, I wouldn’t stop you from committing suicide. I don’t even understand why a selfish person like you would hurt others with impunity. I don’t know why a selfish person like you is alive instead of my mother, who was kind. Don’t take the liberty of irresponsibly saying that people are blessed!!!”

There was no innocent girl who looked like a school idol in her powerful words. They were the words of a person desperately living in the present. And it forced me to realize how shallow I am.

“That’s …”

I was at a loss for words.

“In the end, you just run away. You’re just taking advantage of the people around you who are kind to you. You’re just spoiling yourself, not knowing how blessed you are. Come on… a week ago. A week ago I was going to die here. The one who gave me warmth in my despair was Eiji-senpai. He saved me at the risk of his own life. I will not allow you to trample on the dignity of such a kind man. You don’t deserve that!!!”

I collapsed on the spot with so much force and my own superficiality.

I crumpled to the floor with no strength and was made aware of my own pathetic lack of understanding for my childhood friend by a girl he had known for only a week. Several teachers came down and grabbed my arms. Without realizing it, all I could do was break down and cry.