Chapter 51 It's So Warm
#18ZenkouSeitoItās So Warm
The orange glow of the reading lamp softly spills into the room.
Sitting on the futon, I face Irara, who occasionally glances at me with an embarrassed smile as she talks.
āI mean, sorry, okay? My mom totally lost controlā¦ She probably said a bunch of weird things too.ā
āAhahaā¦ Sheās definitely got a strong personality.ā
āIf only I could just laugh it off like that and move onā¦ She looks so composed most of the time, but when she gets excited, she turns into that. Itās such a problemā¦ I wish sheād think about how her daughter feels. Geezā¦!ā
Irara puffs out her cheeks in frustration.
But she doesnāt actually seem all that mad.
āStill, sheās a good mother.ā
When I say that, Irara widens her eyes in surprise.
Then, after a moment, she smiles innocently and saysā
āYeah! She really is!!ā
In the dim light, her smile shines just as brightly as the lampāmaybe even more.
ā¦Honestly, both inside and out, she has so many good qualities that I could never list them all.
āS-So, um, uhā¦ wellā¦ā
Irara starts fidgeting.
āThereāsā¦ something I want to ask you, Kyogoku-kunā¦ Um, you seeā¦ā
Blushing deep red, Irara summons all her courage and asksā
āD-Do youā¦ um, do you likeā¦ that kind ofā¦ e-e-ecchi bodies, or, umā¦ orā¦?ā
āā¦E-Eh!?ā
The question is so far beyond my expectations that I make a weird sound without thinking.
By āthat kind,ā she probably means Akiko-san, right?
Wait, hold onāwhy is Irara asking me something this embarrassing out loud!?
Whatās she trying to get atā¦?
As I sit there, completely lost, Irara falls silent and looks away.
In other words, sheās waiting for my answer.
ā¦No, seriously, how am I supposed to respond to this?
If I pick the wrong answer, sheās definitely going to hate me.
Thatās the one thing I absolutely have to avoid.
We finally became friendsā¦ and yetāI have no idea what the right answer is!
No matter how I think about it, every possible response feels like a trapā¦
āAnd so, I push my brain into overdrive like never before in my life.
All for the sake of finding the perfect answer.
All to make sure Irara wonāt hate me.
With zero social skills and no experience answering a question like this, the conclusion I reach in just three seconds isā
āI-I donāt hate itā¦ā
ā¦What the hell did I just sayyyyy!?
Saying it out loud makes me sound like the creepiest guy ever, doesnāt it!?
Sheās definitely going to hate me nowā
āH-Hmmā¦ I see. Well, you are a boy, Kyogoku-kunā¦ Ehehe.ā
ā¦Wait, what?
She doesnāt look disgusted, but knowing Irara, she could just be putting on a front.
I have no idea whatās happening anymore.
Seriously, what was I supposed to sayā¦?
Staying silent felt like the worst option, so I panicked and tried to explain.
āThat said, well, to be honest, I donāt really know? I mean, in Akiko-sanās case, itās not just about one thingāitās her whole vibe, the way she talks, all these different factors stacking up and multiplying into what makes her, well, her, so itās hard to evaluate just one part of it, or like, umā¦ā
ā¦Oh. Yeah. That was definitely something I shouldnāt have said.
Just as I start drowning in regret, Irara suddenly speaks up.
āHey, Kyogoku-kunā¦ You call my mom Akiko-san, right?ā
āYeahā¦ She told me to.ā
āHmmā¦ But you call me by my surname.ā
āEh?ā
She mumbles something too quietly to hear, so I ask her to repeat it.
Irara pouts, looking up at me with a sulky expression.
āKyogoku-kun, I-Iā¦ I want you toā¦ā
Her serious expression makes my heart skip a beat.
Whatās she about to say? I brace myselfāwhen suddenly.
āFlash!
The dim room is instantly bathed in a white glow.
A moment later, deep, rumbling thunder shakes the ground, pounding against my eardrums.
āā¦!!!!!ā
āWhoa!!ā
Irara quickly scoots closer and pulls my futon over herself.
The distance between us shrinks.
Weāre now sharing the same futon.
Silky strands of Iraraās hair brush against my hand.
āI-Iām really bad with thunderā¦ S-So, um, sorry, butā¦ can I stay like thisā¦ just a little longer?ā
Her hands are trembling.
Her expression is stiff with fear, making her look like a small, frightened child.
With her asking me like this, no matter how much my self-control is being tested, thereās no way I could refuse.
āO-Ohā¦ yeah, sure.ā
āEheheā¦ Thanks.ā
Irara snuggles deeper under the futon.
I bite my lip and turn away, doing my best not to look at her.
Because if I let my eyes lingerā¦
Itāll get harder to hold myself back, and in some ways, Iāll just end up feeling miserable.
As I listen to the storm outside, I desperately try to distract myself.
Akariās PoV
Iāve been afraid of thunder ever since I was little.
On stormy nights, I would always go to my parentsā room and fall asleep in their arms.
The sense of security they gave meāthe feeling that no matter what, Iād be okayāwas overwhelming.
My momās soft, warm hands. My dadās rough, strong ones.
As long as I was with them, I felt completely safe.
ā¦And right now, I feel that same security with Kyogoku-kun beside me.
Maybe because he was just sleeping,
The futon is still warm, and it smells like Kyogoku-kun.
It makes me feel at ease.
Like no matter what happens, Iāll be okay.
Just a little while ago, I was wide awake and couldnāt sleep at all, but now, my eyelids feel heavy.
āKyogokuā¦kunā¦ā
I let myself sink into the warmth and comfort.
A nostalgic kind of happiness.
Ah, Iā
I feel nostalgic, happy, just a little lonelyā¦ and so incredibly at peace.
I feel like I might cry.
Pulling the futon over my head, I close my eyes, holding onto the moment.
How much time has passed? Maybe ten minutes?
As I continue staring off to the side, trying to distract myself, I hear the sound of steady breathing.
Of course, itās coming from the girl curled up beside me.
āā¦Wait, is sheā¦ asleep?ā
No response.
ā¦So she really is.
āā¦What the hell am I supposed to do now?ā
The sound of rain and wind gradually fades.
I sigh quietly to myself, letting out a deep breath.