Chapter 35 Confession
#Rabu Kome ga HajimattaConfession
After school, I called Shirasaki-san to the old tea ceremony clubroom.
I was a little nervous because I was going to tell Shirasaki-san something important.
Having arrived first, I waited for a while until I heard the door open, and she appeared.
āItās rare for Amagi-kun to call me here.ā
Shirasaki-san said this as she placed her school bag on the floor.
Meanwhile, I began to speak nervously, looking into her eyes.
āYeah, thereās something important I need to talk aboutā¦ā
āSomething important?ā
Shirasaki-san asked, looking puzzled.
āThe other day, I met with Chiharu.ā
When I said that, I noticed Shirasaki-sanās expression stiffen slightly.
Even though she had seen Chiharuās message before, I knew bringing it up now wasnāt ideal. But I had to share it to proceed with what I needed to say.
Besides, I didnāt want to hide anything from her.
āI see⦠Maybe you got back together?ā
There was a mix of anxiety and worry in her question, so I quickly shook my head.
āNo, not at all. She brought it up, she even tried to force herself on me, butā¦ā
āT-Tried to force herself on you⦠Amagi-kun, did you⦠do it?ā
āI didnāt! I turned her down properly!ā
When I denied it as firmly as I could, Shirasaki-san was silent for a moment before letting out a sigh of relief.
āI-I seeā¦ā
āYeah. After talking to her properly, I realized Iāve finally gotten over Chiharu. And thatās probably thanks to you. So thank you, Shirasaki-san.ā
When I said that, she looked a little surprised, then smiled gently.
At least I was able to talk about Chiharu. But there was still one more thing I had to tell her. As I gathered my thoughts, Shirasaki-san looked out the window at the scenery outside and began speaking quietly.
āActually, I should be the one thanking you. Youāre the one who changed my life, Amagi-kun.ā
āEh?ā
I couldnāt help but exclaim.
Changed her life? I didnāt remember doing anything like thatā¦
The only thing I could think of was writing the song that she became the center for, which turned into a big hit.
But that was related to her work as an idol, not something that seemed to change her life on such a deep level. As I tried to make sense of her words, she turned back to me and said,
āYou know, I became an idol because of Amagi-kun. You didnāt know, did you?ā
I was speechless at her confession, delivered with a bright smile.
She became an idol because of me?
I always thought she loved Luminous Stars and pursued her dream of being an idol for herself. But apparently, that wasnāt the case.
āWhen you used to say you liked Amane-chan, the center of Luminous Stars at the time, I decided Iād become an idol and aim to be a center too.ā
Like solving a puzzle, she confessed this to me.
āI-I had no idea⦠but why would you go that far?ā
I reflexively asked.
Perhaps it wasnāt something I should have asked at this point.
But I wanted to understand her feelings fully.
āThatās⦠because I liked Amagi-kun. And I still feel that way.ā
She averted her gaze, a slight blush tinting her cheeks.
Feeling her unwavering affection, happiness welled up inside me.
At the same time, guilt crept in for making her express her feelings first. Iād suspected her feelings for some time.
Yet, I didnāt know what to say to her, baring her emotions so earnestly.
āS-Say something.ā
Shirasaki-san muttered, unable to endure the prolonged silence.
āIām sorry, Shirasaki-san!ā
Bowing my head, I replied.
Then, raising my face again, I decided to share my own feelings.
āActually, I realized how you felt about me. Youāve been showing me affection for a while now, but I pretended not to notice. Because of what happened with Chiharu, I started distrusting women⦠But now that Iāve moved past that, I can finally say this.ā
After finishing that sentence, I took a deep breath and said,
āI like you too, Shirasaki-san.ā
My heart was pounding in my chest.
It was difficult to put my feelings into words.
But in the end, I managed to say what mattered most.
I like her.
As long as she knew that, it was enough.
As I waited for her response, I got an unexpected reaction.
āAmagi-kun⦠you scared me!!!ā
She raised her voice in distress, tears brimming in her eyes.
āEh?ā
āBecause you said āsorryā first, I thought you were rejecting me! My heart canāt handle thisā¦ā
She pleaded, her eyes still teary.
āIām sorry. I just meant I felt bad for realizing your feelings and not doing anything⦠Thereās no way Iād reject youā¦ā
I hurriedly tried to explain.
āI get it now. But Iām still flustered from your sudden confession. This is your fault, so youād better take responsibility!ā
āR-Responsibility meansā¦ā
āSince we both like each other, I want us to become a coupleāand I want you to pamper me a lot.ā
Becoming her boyfriend felt like the natural step for us.
I imagined a future with her as my lover and felt certain weād be happy. But there was one concern.
āIs it really okay? Youāre an idol, and Iād be monopolizing you.ā
A romance between an idol and a regular person wouldnāt be easy. If it became public, it could hinder her career.
āI want to continue being an idol and also be your girlfriend. I know itās selfish, but⦠would you be my accomplice?ā
That was her final question. Iād feared she might quit being an idol for me, but I was relieved she wasnāt considering that. I wanted her to keep shining.
At the same time, I wanted to be by her side.
She called herself selfish, but I felt the same way.
In that sense, her word āaccompliceā was fitting.
āI donāt mind. If I can be with you, Iāll take the risk.ā
When I said that, she smiled and nodded in relief.
āI knew youād say that. So from now on, weāre officially a couple, okay?ā
She said this with a radiant smile.
And so, we became lovers.
But it still felt surreal.
āSo weāre really a couple now, huh?ā
āYeah, it still doesnāt feel real.ā
She seemed to feel the same way. Taking my hand, she pulled me closer, her face just inches from mine. Her moist eyes and gentle expression made my heart race as she whispered,
āā¦Should we do something couple-like to make it real?ā
āL-Like what?ā
āMaybe a hug?ā
When I nodded, she leaned in and hugged me, burying her face in my shoulder. Her warmth was intoxicating.
āAmagi-kun, I love you.ā
She whispered softly, and happiness overwhelmed me.
I hugged her back, silently vowing to make her happy.