Chapter 54 Rina's Past and Feelings

Rina’s Past and Feelings

I, Kuroda Rina, am troubled.

It’s about Makoto, my ex-husband, of course.

Of course, I understand that it’s all my fault, but I don’t think it’s too late.

I believe Makoto will take me back.

Because Makoto loves me so much.

That’s why I can’t believe that Makoto rejected me.

“…It’s impossible, isn’t it?”

Yes, it’s impossible.

It’s impossible that Makoto, who was so in love with me, would suddenly become cold towards me.

Makoto and I met in college.

At that time, I was relatively quiet.

To put it positively, I was quiet and pure, but to put it negatively, I was a dark loner.

Makoto is the reason why I changed into what I am now.

One day, while I was reading a book in the university library, he spoke to me, and that was the beginning of everything.

“Oh, that book! I like it too!”

“Eh…?”

“Ah, sorry… I was a bit forward.”

Makoto laughed nervously.

At that time, I really thought he was being forward.

But when we started talking because we were both fans of the same book, I was gradually attracted to his kindness, and I quickly realized that it was love.

This was probably my long-awaited first love.

“Um… I, I… I like you. So, would you go out with me?”

And then the confession I was waiting for.

He must have gathered a lot of courage because his face was as red as an apple and the hand he was holding out was trembling.

Of course, my answer was already decided.

“Yes… Please treat me well.”

And so we started dating.

It was then that he told me about his past.

That he had lost both his parents and was all alone.

Maybe that was why he started clinging to me all the time.

No matter what I did or where I went, he would follow me.

He was probably dependent on me from that point on.

I was happy to accept this somewhat heavy love.

I was also dependent on him.

So I gave him everything.

My first kiss and my v🬀🬀ginity.

“I’m happy, Rina… I’ll never let you go.”

“Me too… We’ll be together forever.”

A promise we always made after we were done.

But these words were like a curse.

We became beings who couldn’t live without each other, and finally, he asked me to marry him.

“Rina, marry me.”

“Y-yes, with pleasure.”

I accepted without hesitation.

I introduced him to my parents, and a year after we met, we got married.

Even after we were married, Makoto was still attached to me and always put me first.

At first, I was happy about it, but I started to find it a little annoying.

Because he would cling to me even when I was tired and came home from work.

“Welcome home, Rina. Dinner’s ready! Oh, are you going to take a bath first? I already drew the bath.”

“Yes, thank you.”

Even though Makoto must have been tired from work, he seemed not to care and did everything for me.

I was so tired and overwhelmed that I began to take him for granted and felt that his love was too much for me to bear.

Maybe that was why I wanted some freedom.

So I decided to push him away.

I thought that if I hurt him with harsh words or physically distanced myself from him, he would calm down a bit.

I was so naive to think that way.

Insults became commonplace, and I refused intimacy with him.

He still tried to get close to me.

But I found this unbearable and finally committed the foolish act of cheating.

If he knew that I loved someone else, he would definitely be deeply hurt and distance himself from me.

Yes, it would be enough for him to distance himself.

Still, I thought he would still love me.

But that expectation was betrayed, and I never thought that it would actually lead to a divorce and distance between us.

“Weren’t you so dependent on me…? Weren’t you never going to let me go…?”

I know it’s selfish of me to say this.

But he’s so incredibly kind that he will forgive me eventually. He’ll love me again.

But the look Makoto gave me was colder than I had ever seen before.

We’ve known each other for so long, but I’ve never seen Makoto like that. It’s an incredible sight.

“Makoto… what happened?”

That’s right, something must have happened to Makoto to make him change his mind.

There’s no way that Makoto, who was so dependent on me, would be cold to me.

Then what is the reason for his change of heart?

“There must be someone who changed Makoto.”

Yes, I’m sure of it.

Because that’s not the real Makoto.

Someone must have changed Makoto’s heart.

I don’t know how, but whoever changed my Makoto has committed a great sin.

“I will not forgive… I will never forgive….”

So I decided to take action.