Chapter 40 Ex-Wife; Rina's Regret

Ex-Wife; Rina’s Regret

“Why did this happen to me…?”

I, Kuroda Rina, felt utter despair at this moment.

The only words that came out of my mouth were regret.

Why did I go through this?

Where did I go wrong?

In college, I met Makoto, fell in love with him, and we started dating. We fought sometimes, but we always made up and deepened our love.

That love blossomed into marriage, and I wore the wedding dress I had dreamed of and exchanged vows with him.

I was very happy then.

We did everything together, went shopping together, cooked together, took baths together, and made love before going to bed to deepen our love.

I was completely lost in his love and thought I was happy.

But soon I began to feel unsatisfied.

So I wanted more excitement.

“Hey, are you drinking? Are you sure you’re okay?”

The one who showed up was my senior, Fushimi Toru.

Although we were in different departments, he was a popular figure in the company. His kindness in caring for others, his wonderful smile, and his ability to work made him popular with the female employees.

I was no exception, and although I was married, I fell in love with him.

Maybe he could fulfill my heart.

So when a friend from another department told me that there was going to be another drinking party and that my senior would be there, my heart raced, and I agreed without hesitation.

But if my senior found out that I was married, he would surely ignore me.

Afraid of that, I took off my wedding ring and left.

By that time, I had stopped caring about my husband, Makoto. He was nothing more to me than a convenient ATM.

But I realized that even that thought was wrong.

Yes, at that time, when my sister saw me on a date with my senior, Makoto started ignoring me.

“Hey, what about dinner? You haven’t even prepared the bath yet!”

More irritated than ever after being rejected by my senior, I vented my frustration more than usual, but he ignored me as if I wasn’t even there.

He made his own dinner, took a shower, and went to bed alone.

When I woke up, he had already left for work.

As those days passed, my heart gradually changed.

“Hey, hey? I made dinner, so let’s eat it together, okay? I also prepared the bath, so let’s take a bath, okay?”

I tried to please him by preparing meals and baths that I hadn’t made in a long time.

But he didn’t eat any of the food I prepared. What in the world was wrong with him? He had never done this before. He loved my home-cooked food. I mean, he loved me.

But several days went by without me being able to talk to him, and I was overwhelmed with anxiety.

I want to talk to him. I want to touch him. I want to laugh with him.

Even though I was the one who rejected him by saying, "Don’t talk to me" and "Don’t touch me," I think it’s selfish of me.

But I couldn’t give up because the feelings that I thought were gone came back.

“It’s okay if I apologize; I’m sure he’ll forgive me…because he loves me so much….”

I muttered to myself. But it’s the truth.

We’ve been together for so many years, so I know his feelings very well. Therefore, he should understand my feelings as well.

But that faint hope was shattered one day.

“Rina, let’s get a divorce.”

A divorce paper was suddenly shoved in my face.

When I realized it, I experienced my first despair.

I believed he wouldn’t abandon me.

But it wasn’t just him who abandoned me.

I was cut off from my parents and my sister, and I was fired from my job.

I was completely alone.

“…I’m lonely….”

Alone, I was sobbing, feeling lonely in an old apartment room.

I want to find a new man, be happy, and take revenge on those who betrayed me.

I thought so at first, but I couldn’t find the energy to look for another man.

“…Ma, Makoto… I miss you….”

I looked at the photo of my and Makoto’s honeymoon on my smartphone and cried.

I was happy then. I was the one who destroyed that happiness.

But I want to go back. I want to start over.

“…Let’s meet, Makoto…”

I realized that I thought that because I still love him.

But I doubt he would forgive me even if I apologized now, and I’m not sure he would even listen to me properly.

So I decided to make a plan.

I don’t know if it will be my atonement, but I want to show Makoto that I’m different from the horrible person I was.

“Now that I have decided….”

I decided to take action right away.

I’m sure I can do it. With that belief.