Chapter 31 Something I Shouldn't Have Seen

Something I Shouldn’t Have Seen

Iroha-san started to grill the chicken on the grill while I started to cook the stew by adding roux, so I washed the used cooking utensils. When I finished washing the dishes, I had nothing to do, so I said, “I’m going to wash my face and take a break.”

Iroha-san replied, “Yes, thank you for your help. Have a good rest.”

So I took off the apron I was borrowing and said, “I’m going to borrow the bathroom.”

I went into the bathroom, splashed cold water on my face, turned off the water, and wiped my face with a towel.

I checked my face in the mirror in front of me, returned the used towel, and was about to leave the bathroom when I saw something wrapped in a white plastic bag from the convenience store, hidden behind the bottles of lotion and face wash on the shelf.

I casually picked it up, and it turned out to be a compact-sized box wrapped in a drugstore bag from nearby.

I unfolded the bag and looked inside, and there was a compact-sized box.

Is it some kind of medicine?

Is Iroha-san feeling ill?

Curious, I took the box out of the bag and found it to be an unopened box of c🬀🬀doms.

My heart started pounding, and I panicked, thinking, “I’ve seen something I shouldn’t have.”

I quickly returned it to its original state.

I left the bathroom and looked at Iroha-san in the kitchen. Our eyes met, and she smiled at me and said, “The chicken will be ready in about five minutes, so please wait.”

She didn’t seem to notice that I had seen the c🬀🬀dom.

I returned to the room with my heart pounding and sat down. My throat was dry, so I drank the cold tea from the glass on the table in one gulp.

Iroha-san had prepared c🬀🬀doms.

In my mind, Iroha-san and c🬀🬀doms don’t go together at all.

Iroha-san and I had never discussed such a topic before.

Does Iroha-san have s🬀x?

For me, right?

She told me she was my first lover, and I thought she was completely inexperienced, just like me.

Even though we hadn’t talked about it, the fact that she prepared the c🬀🬀doms herself means that she’s different, right?

No, I didn’t mean that she had to be a v🬀🬀gin or anything like that. But when I faced the reality that Iroha-san might have experienced, I was still shocked.

Because I’m afraid that if she had experience, she would be disappointed in me.

I’m inexperienced and have no knowledge, and I’m a man who was rejected by the girlfriend who was supposed to love me.

I can’t help but remember the humiliation I felt when I found out she was having s🬀x with another man.

Because of this, I have a strong aversion to s🬀x.

I’m afraid she’ll be disappointed because I’m “unable to have s🬀x” or “bad at it”.

Even if Iroha-san has no experience and is just preparing for our first experience, it’s the same.

I love Iroha-san, and I want to kiss her and hug her. I have these desires, but my fear and anxiety about s🬀x are stronger than my desires.

While I was thinking about these things, Iroha-san called out, “The food is ready. Please help me carry it.”

I replied, “Yes, I’ll help.”

I got up and went to the kitchen, picked up two bowls of stew and spoons on a tray, and was about to return to the room when Iroha-san called out to me.

“Taichi-kun? You look pale? Are you okay?”

“Eh? Yes, I’m fine.”

“Are you sure you’re not overdoing it?”

“Not at all! I’m fine!”

I replied to hide my anxiety, but Iroha-san walked up to me, held out her hand, and touched my forehead.

“You don’t seem to have a fever, but is your stomach upset or something?”

“Really, I’m fine. Let’s eat quickly. I’m starving.”

“Okay, I understand. But if you feel uncomfortable, please tell me right away.”

“Okay!”

But I ended up eating the cream stew and the chicken without really tasting it. I ate while talking as usual, but I didn’t remember the content of the conversation very well.

Because I was pretending to be calm, I think Iroha-san probably didn’t notice that I had seen the c🬀🬀dom in the bathroom. But as time passed, I felt an increasing sense of anxiety that made my legs feel weak.

After we finished washing the dishes together, the clock said 7:30.

I usually try to leave by 8, and even if it’s late, I leave by 9.

Even though we’re lovers, staying late would be a nuisance.

So today I decided to leave a little earlier than usual.

While saying this to myself, I said, “I’m going home now. Thank you for the meal.”

Iroha-san said with a slightly sad face, “Today you can stay a little longer, can’t you? It’s Christmas….”

Every time I leave, she has a sad face, and every time I feel more love for her and hate to leave.

But now I’m afraid that if I stay in the room, she might say, “Let’s have s🬀x.”

“I’m sorry. I’m not feeling very well. We have class tomorrow, so I’ll go home tonight.”

“I’m sorry for making you do this. You should rest tonight.”

“I’m really sorry.”

I got ready to leave, put on the scarf Iroha-san gave me, and went to the entrance. When I went to the entrance, Iroha-san also came to the entrance. After putting on my shoes, I turned to Iroha-san and said, “Thank you for the food today. Take care, Iroha-san.”

Iroha-san silently hugged me from the front without saying anything.

I was surprised by the suddenness of it, but I hugged her back because I felt anxious.

“I’m sorry. I’ll be very sad if you leave, Taichi-kun.”

“I’m the one who’s sorry. I can’t stay for Christmas.”

“It’s okay now.”

She let go of me and said, “Take care on your way home. If you don’t feel well tomorrow, don’t force yourself to go to the campus.”

“Yes. I’m going home now. Good night.”

“Yes, good night.”

I left the room and quietly closed the front door. A few seconds later, I heard the sound of the door closing. Then I let out a big sigh.

On my way home, riding my bicycle by myself, I kept thinking about Iroha-san and the c🬀🬀dom.

When I’m with Iroha-san, I’m happy; every day is fun, and I thought those days would last forever.

I never imagined that Iroha-san would prepare c🬀🬀doms.

Of course, I don’t have c🬀🬀doms.

It’s obvious because I don’t intend to have s🬀x, but that doesn’t necessarily mean the other person doesn’t either.

I was wrong for not thinking that far ahead, but knowing that Iroha-san was thinking about s🬀x in some way, I was shaken up.