Chapter 78 Kanzaki Momoka's Past (1)

Kanzaki Momoka’s Past (1)

I met Hiiragi-kun… It was a few months after I entered the school. But I only knew him onesidedly, so it’s probably wrong to say that we met.

I met him on an ordinary day after school.

I had forgotten something in the classroom, so I looked in and stopped.

He was cleaning the classroom by himself. Normally, the classroom should be cleaned by several people, but Hiiragi-kun was cleaning by himself in silence. It was probably because the people in his group had given him the cleaning job since Hiiragi-kun usually didn’t say anything.

His posture didn’t show any dissatisfaction; it was as if he just accepted the situation as it was. At first, I felt a little sorry for him, but at the same time, I felt a strange uneasiness and interest in him.

I remember now that when he greeted me on the first day of school, I felt a little uncomfortable and uneasy. I had forgotten about it as I got used to making friends and starting a new life after entering high school.

His eyes did not seem to reflect anything. Even though he should’ve seen the scenery and there should’ve been color, he looked like a robot.

Come to think of it, I had never talked to him or paid attention to him before.

I entered the classroom, and when he started to move the desks, I decided to help him move them.

When he saw me, he said, “I’m sorry,” with lifeless eyes.

“It’s okay; I just wanted to help.”

“I’m really sorry to bother you.”

He said this again and moved the desk back to its original place.

Seeing that, I moved the desk as well and put it back in its original place. We were done in no time.

“Hiiragi-kun, do you always do this by yourself?”

“Yes. I can only do so much. Everyone else seems to be busy.”

As expected, the people in Hiiragi-kun’s group made excuses and left early.

“Isn’t it hard? Isn’t it painful? Are you okay?”

“…? No, it’s not hard, nor is it painful, and I’m fine.”

He tilted his head and looked at me with those lifeless eyes.

“Because I can only do so much.”

I shuddered and said, “I, I see.” I didn’t know what was scary. It was just that I felt a strange, unpleasant sensation creeping up my spine.

Now that I think about it, I shouldn’t have gotten involved with Hiiragi-kun.

I shouldn’t have gotten involved with him by waving my strange kindness around. I shouldn’t have thought that I liked him.

My disgusting habit, so to speak, is “kindness”.

When I see someone in trouble, I try to be kind and help them. I am indecisive and can’t make decisions. I’m a failure.

I thought that “being kind” must be a good thing. But that was wrong, and I realized too late that I couldn’t be “kind” to everyone.

I shouldn’t have shown that kind of “kindness” when I had a boyfriend named Hiiragi-kun.