Chapter 101 After 6 The Right

After 6 The Right

When I started to feel regret, I stopped feeling anything.

I want to forget my past, I want to forget my regrets, so I always fill my life with pleasure.

I didn’t want to remember.

But because of Kaori…I couldn’t stand it anymore.

I want to see her.

I want to apologize.

I wonder if she is well.

I wonder if she is sick.

I also wonder about Ichika.

I wonder what kind of life she leads.

If she is in trouble, I want to help her.

And I want to apologize to both of them.

For hurting them.

For making them suffer.

For frighten them.

For all that I’ve betrayed…all.

Please forgive me.

I want you to accept me…as a family again.

No matter how much money I have, I can’t have it——

That warmth.

A family.

With this one thought in my mind——I went to the place where our house used to be.

The reunion was in my hometown, so it was not far from that house. So it didn’t take long to get there by taxi.

(…I don’t see any buildings there…)

The first thing I did when I got out of the taxi was to look at the land where my house used to be…and I saw that nothing had been built there, it was an empty lot.

I sold that house and land as a source of funds when I graduated from college and started my business.

I thought another house had been built, but apparently not.

I hadn’t been to this place since I graduated from college, so it was a strange feeling to see the house that was supposed to be there gone.

It was a mistake…That money was what made the business a success. But now I regret that I shouldn’t have sold it.

Because it was an important place that gave me fond memories of spending time with my family.

I should’ve thought more about how to raise money…With my skills, I could’ve used other methods. I could’ve raised as much money as I wanted.

Regret is growing.

I have excruciating pain in my chest.

I haven’t felt this way for a long time.

I don’t need this feeling…it’s just painful.

I want to feel better soon.

I want to see my mom and Ichika.

So I went to Takumi’s house…next to my former home.

(Yokatta. His house is still the same.)

Mom and Ichika lived in his house for a while. They probably moved after that, but I don’t know when or where they moved.

Well, let’s ask him.

If Takumi is still in that house…I’ll ask him to tell me where my mother and Ichika are.

I don’t care if I have to bow down.

If he wants money, I’ll give him as much as he wants.

I’m willing to apologize if he asks.

…When I think about it, I feel I did a lot of things to get revenge on him.

But that fighting spirit soon faded and I somehow forgot about it.

Revenge was a trivial emotion that would be forgotten in time.

I was a fool to worry about such things as winners and losers.

No matter how much money, status, or accolades you have…you will never be satisfied. There is always someone above you. There is no point in comparing yourself with others.

Whether you are happy or not.

Whether you are happy or not.

That was the most important thing.

Takumi probably realized this from the beginning. That was probably why he chose a life that was not about winning or losing.

I should’ve done the same.

I should’ve chewed on that happiness.

…I don’t want to have any more regrets.

My pride is already broken.

So I decided to ask Takumi for help…and it was just then.

Click!

The front door opened.

At that moment I hid behind a telephone pole.

It was unconscious.

I wasn’t ready yet.

And then…an adult man about my age appeared.

He was undoubtedly——Takumi.

Has he gained weight? He had a slightly plump body, and perhaps because of that, he had a gentler air than before.

(The world we live in is so different…)

I can’t believe he’s the same age as me.

Takumi had a very calm expression on his face.

For someone like me who lives in a world where wins and losses change quickly and where I’m always on guard for someone to steal from me…it’s very strange for me to be as defenseless as Takumi is…I felt jealous at the same time.

That’s why I couldn’t move.

I wondered if I had the “right” to get involved with a person like Takumi again——