Chapter 100 After 5 Regret

After 5 Regret

“I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. If I had continued dating Takumi back then…I wonder what would’ve happened now.”

“…would never have worked out. There is no way a woman like you could have a serious relationship.”

“Ahaha. That’s maybe true…but Takumi was serious. I should’ve faced him seriously instead of running away——”

Her words are not light.

The reason is that there is a very heavy “regret” in them.

“At least I might not have had to live my life like this. Even if it didn’t work out and we had to break up, I think I could’ve changed more if Takumi had been with me.”

“You, can you change?”

“Yes, I can…Because in my life so far, I have almost gone down a dangerous path many times. If I took one more step, the end was waiting for me. But at that time, I remembered Takumi’s words and was able to stop—What are you doing?—He was the only one who said that to me.”

That guy’s thoughts seemed to have changed Kaori a little bit.

Because of my job, I have seen many people. Both successful and unsuccessful.

So I know.

Kaori was definitely the type of person who would have been ruined long ago.

But it seems that the reason she was able to stop at the edge…was because of Takumi’s influence.

“I wanted to say thank you. I wanted to say I’m sorry——I regret it, I really regret it…”

I got up from my seat…without saying anything to Kaori who was mumbling.

No, I just couldn’t say anything.

(Damn. Don’t make me remember…!)

Sorry, huh?

Don’t make me remember that word.

It’s her fault.

Kaori…you made me remember it too.

I remember my mother who was kind to me.

I remember my sweet little sister who loved me so much.

I remembered the two people I was trying to forget…and I ran out of the bar——

——I grew older and older.

I have experienced a lot. I have seen many things. I have interacted with many people and witnessed the “lives” of many others.

As the business grew, so did the number of people involved…I developed an eye for people.

Business is a world of the weak and the strong. If you don’t have an eye for people, you won’t survive.

As a byproduct, I have become able to see into the true nature of people…which has caused me to be more and more disappointed in other people.

People are all scum.

Most of them are scum.

…Of course——including me.

That’s why I came to…realize something.

There is a fact I didn’t want to realize.

That is…my mother was a wonderful person who raised me.

She was a miracle. It was a miracle that such a person existed.

There are many kind people out there. But most of them are only kind for their own benefit.

But she was different.

She was a special person…who could wish for the happiness of others without regard to her own interests.

My mother (Ofukuro)…No, my mother (Okaa-san) was that kind of person.

Not that I didn’t notice.

It was just that she was so close to me that I didn’t realize how rare she was.

I thought people like my mother were common.

But I was wrong.

I had never met anyone like her.

I had never known such a kind, warm, and good person except her.

There is no one else who could take in the child of the man who made her unhappy and love him as her own.

…It’s because I already know my mother.

That’s why I have such high ideals of what I want in a woman.

That’s why I can’t get married.

Unconsciously, I’m looking for a woman like my mother.

She was such a wonderful person.

And yet, I’m…I’m…!

(I’m the worst person ever.)

I spit on the love I received.

…I stepped on her love and hurt her.

I regret it now——