Chapter 55 Overcoming Trauma

Overcoming Trauma

(Will you sleep with me?)

I was surprised to hear Hana-san make such a request.

(Hana-san, you’re too defenseless.)

I’ve known for a while that you’re not a person with high self-esteem.

But I want you to know that you’re the kind of person men like the most.

Your small body, your big br🬀🬀sts, and your comfortable hugging style…all of these things are very stimulating to high school boys.

To be honest, I was hesitant.

I wonder——if this was really a good idea.

“…I know it, looks like you don’t really want to sleep with such an old woman…”

Hana-san made a sad face at me.

It’s not fair to make a face like that.

“I don’t hate it! Never!”

“Really?”

“Yes. But the problem is that I don’t hate it, or rather, it’s because I really like it…!”

I was told something I didn’t know how to answer, and this time I panicked.

“Hana-san, are you sure? Sleep with me, aren’t you afraid?”

“…Ara, were you worried about that? You’re so kind, Takumi-kun.”

In response to my question, Hana-san smiled softly.

Then she gently patted my head…and said something like this.

“But it’s okay because I see Takumi-kun as a boy rather than a man. You’re still a high school student…normally it’s okay for a boy that age.”

Boy, huh?

Then that’s good…right?

Umm. I’m a little disappointed that I’m not manly enough in her eyes, but I think Hana-san would be afraid of me if I were manly enough, so maybe it was pretty good.

Anyway, never mind.

There’s no need for me to be too self-aware. Hana-san thinks of me as a boy…so maybe it’s okay to be boyish and honest and sweet with her.

“Then I understand. If it’s okay with me…gladly.”

I wouldn’t say I was nervous, but my shoulders were relaxed.

Of course, we were just going to sleep together. There’s no need for me to be overly self-aware of it because I don’t feel guilty.

“Thank you. Let’s go to your room.”

So that’s how we moved from the living room to my room.

I went upstairs and opened the door…where I finally remembered that it had been a long time since I had been in here.

(Come to think of it, it’s been since I saw Takeshi and Kaori cheating.)

I hadn’t used this room since then.

This is because I can see Takeshi’s room from the window.

The curtains are closed…but I still remember that guy when I was in that room, so I’ve been sleeping on the sofa in the living room ever since.

“…I’m sorry. I think Takumi-kun doesn’t like this room either.”

Even Hana-san understood that.

But it seems that she suggested using this room anyway because…

“I’m here too, so it’s okay…Let’s do our best to get through this together, okay? I don’t want us to be traumatized by Takeshi.”

…Yeah, that’s right.

If I continue to refuse to even remember, Takeshi will continue to be a trauma in my heart.

Maybe every time I fall in love, I’ll be reminded of Takeshi and it’ll make things worse.

I don’t want to let him ruin my life anymore.

So I cannot run away. We should face him properly and get over it.

Hana-san seemed to have thought about that as well.

It was as if she was thinking about me…like a real mother.

Her kindness was very warm——