Chapter 50 Where Happiness Lies
#Kuzu no OsananajimiWhere Happiness Lies
Anyway, for whatever reason, there is no problem with Hana-san and Ichika living in my house.
When I told her this and asked her about the situation, Hana-san cleared her throat as if to calm herself, and then began to explain.
āHonestly. Wellā¦Yesterday, after listening to Takumi-kunās story, I thought about it again. How should I face Takeshi from now on.ā
I quietly listened to Hana-sanās story.
I had already told her everything I wanted to tell her yesterday. Iām sure that Hana-san has come to a conclusion based on what I told her.
If that is the case, I want to hear it.
I wanted to know what Hana-san thought and what kind of change of heart she had.
āI thought about a lot of things. I could apologize and try to make peace with him, or I could get angry and urge him to reflectā¦or I should just express my opinion properly and face Takeshi even if it leads to a fight. I thought about several optionsā¦ā
But Hana-sanā¦chose a different way.
She decided to move into my house.
āBut you seeā¦I couldnāt sleep at all last night. I thought maybe I couldnāt sleep because I was just temporarily worried, but thatās definitely not the caseā¦I was so afraid of Takeshiāāthat I couldnāt sleep.ā
Probably Hana-sanās real intention is to face Takeshi.
I feel that she also wants to save him.
But that is probably impossible.
Mentally and physicallyā¦the act of āsaving Takeshiā is a painful one for Hana-san.
āEven though I slept in the same futon with Ichika, it didnāt work. I didnāt know when Takeshi would come back. I was scared, and frightened, and my body didnāt stop shaking all the timeā¦In the end, he didnāt come back yesterday, so we didnāt have to see each other. But itās hard to live a normal life in such a condition.ā
ā¦Thatās why Hana-sanāāmade the decision to move out.
āI feel like Iām going to collapse when Iām with Takeshi.ā
āā¦Hana-san, you havenāt forgotten what I told you yesterday, have you?ā
I want you to take care of yourself.
Not just for Hana-san herself. Neither Ichika nor I want Hana-san to be unhappy.
When I told her that again, Hana-san smiled at me as if to say donāt worry.
āYes. Itās not like I forgotā¦thatās why I stopped. If it had been me before, I might have tried to help Takeshi without thinking about myself, butā¦I canāt do that anymore.ā
āThen Iām glad.ā
āUfufuā¦sorry for worrying you, okay? Iām fine now. I donāt want to make Ichika and Takumi-kun sad. SoāāI decided to just watch over Takeshi.ā
ā¦I see.
Hana-san finally made up her mind.
āAs for Takeshi, I will leave everything to him. Until he finishes high schoolā¦If he goes to college, I will help him with his living expenses until he graduatesāāBut we canāt live together.ā
To get away from Takeshi, a person who always takes things.
Itās definitely better not to get involved with a looter who takes kindness, affection, warmth, and care for granted.
Especially a kind person like Hana-san, who can consider other peopleās happiness as her ownā¦will only be taken advantage of by people like Takeshi.
So Iām relieved.
(Yokatta. Now Hana-sanā¦will be okay.)
I was worried.
If Hana-san does not take care of herself and becomes obsessed with Takeshiā¦what lies ahead is surely her downfall.
She has been living an unrewarding life all this time.
At leastā¦I hope she will be rewarded from now on.
I hope Hana-san can be happy too.
I sincerely hope soāā