Chapter 148 Miyuki and Her Mother

Miyuki and Her Mother

Now there is nothing I can do. No matter how hard I try to make things better, it becomes an excuse.

So all I can do is sincerely apologize.

“I’m sorry, Mom…”

I feel a sense of disgust, almost rejection, from my mother.

“What are you going to do…sneak into school during suspension…and try to commit s🬀🬀cide? Did you really want to make Eiji-kun suffer even more? After you did the worst to him? Will it make you feel better to give him an eternal scar…?”

The same thing that Ichijo-san had said before came back to me from my mother’s mouth.

“I didn’t mean it like that. I was just afraid of losing everything because I had lived as an honor student all this time. I was just afraid of losing everything I’d worked so hard for…”

And it made me realize that in the end, I was only thinking about myself. I was just afraid of losing everything I had built up so far. There was no one there, not Eiji, not Kondo-senpai, not my mother, no one…

What came out of Ichijo-san, who had stopped me on the rooftop earlier, was that she was more concerned about Eiji than herself. She supported Eiji, knowing all the time that she might become the target of bullying and that her reputation might be damaged.

On the contrary, I betrayed my childhood friend boyfriend who had been with me all my life, and I value myself more than him.

Just thinking about it makes me feel inferior.

“In the end, it’s all about you. Miyuki. I’m sure that you have never loved anyone before. And from now on, will you ever be able to love anyone else…?”

My mother says coldly. Her sharp words slowly penetrate my heart. And I realize that I still don’t really understand the meaning of her words.

That’s what my mother says. I’m going to be in hell from now on.

“What should I do?”

Can I meet him and apologize? I tried to ask this, but…

“I was just able to call Aono-san’s house just now…”

My mother continues to tell the truth in a matter-of-fact manner.

“…”

I was afraid to hear the result. I was sure she was close to Eiji’s mother.

“The apology was not accepted. No wonder. They want compensation for the bullying of Eiji-kun. Everyone involved, including you.”

Compensation. Hearing those words, I felt my body temperature drop like a gulp.

“…”

I’m on the verge of tears, waiting to hear what my mother has to say next.

“I have a responsibility as your guardian. I will fulfill that responsibility. I will provide some compensation if Aono-san asks for it later. Even if I have to sell the house. And if we fight it in court, we will put an additional burden on Aono-san’s family, who have been so kind to us. We absolutely cannot do that.”

Sell the house. Losing the house that my mother worked so hard to build. Her determination and my mistakes have shaken me to my core.

“I’m sorry…”

All I can do is apologize.

“I don’t think you truly understand the gravity of your sin. I told Aono-san directly that you wanted to apologize, but she told me this; She doesn’t want to see you as much as possible. She also asked me to stop your contact with Eiji-kun because she doesn’t want to remind him of you. Miyuki, you have done so much. You must understand the weight of your sin.”

Her words sounded like the sound of cold water as if I was slowly being pulled back to reality.