Chapter 19 Unpleasant Feeling

Unpleasant Feeling

After that, I went to school, parted from Yoka, and went to the classroom, and Shiramine-san came up to me.

“Hiiragi-kun, can you give me some time after school?”

That’s what I was told.

I had no idea what it was about, but I wondered what she would say.

I tried to think about it during class, but I couldn’t come up with an answer. …

“Hiiragi-kun, are you thinking about something?”

“…yes, a little.”

Lunch break.

When I was having lunch with Aoi-senpai, she looked at me and said something like this,

“It’s okay if you can't talk about it, but why don’t you talk to me? I might be able to help you a little, and you might feel a little lighter.”

“Thank you for your concern. But it’s not that heavy a story. I was just thinking about what it meant when Shiramine-san called me to the rooftop.”

When she heard what I had to say, she became mysterious and asked me this,

“I mean, this Shiramine-san… is someone who had something to do with Hiiragi-kun in the past?”

“Yes, that’s right. A little bit in elementary school.”

“… I see.”

Aoi-senpai looked like she was thinking and fell silent.

After a few minutes, she looked at me,

“So, what do you want to do, Hiiragi-kun?”

“I’ve been called out, so I’ll go. It might be something important.”

The first thing I thought of was that she was in the middle of a fight with Yoka and wanted me to mediate between them. But,

Yoka probably doesn’t think much of me, so there’s no way I can mediate between her and Yoka, so I’m thinking of just saying no.

“… It might be strange for me to say this since I’m not involved, but I think it’s better if you don’t go.”

“…why?”

“I have a bad feeling. I think something bad might happen to Hiiragi-kun.”

Aoi-senpai said with serious eyes.

Something bad …

If I go to the rooftop, would Shiramine-san push me or something? I heard that she’s been holding a grudge about that incident for a long time.

That would make sense.

If that’s the case, that’s fine with me. I had thought for a long time that it would be better for me, such a failure, to die. But when I tried to kill myself, Yoka, my mother, and my father stopped me and looked as if they were going to cry.

That’s why I stopped.

But if she killed me, it would be just retribution, wouldn’t it? …

“If you want to go, Hiiragi-kun, I won’t stop you, but be careful.”

“Understood. Thank you.”

It’s sad that I didn’t listen to Aoi-senpai’s advice, who worked so hard to become my friend, but if this is my retribution, then I’ll take it. I’m a failure, but maybe I can finally be of some use. …

And finally, after school, I went to the rooftop of the side school building.

Every time I go up the stairs, I feel like I’m going to be beheaded. However, thinking that this might be my last role, I could go on without thinking about anything in particular.

When I opened the broken and rusty door, I found Shiramine-san standing in front of me.