Chapter 17 Childhood Friend's Messed Up Thoughts

Childhood Friend’s Messed Up Thoughts

I was on my way home from a café after school with Aoi-senpai. I said goodbye to her and got off at the next station.

Aoi-senpai seemed to be enjoying herself from start to finish, so I guess I could be of some help to her.

With that in mind, I was walking home when a voice called out to me from behind.

“Hiiragi-kun Hiiragi-kun.”

I turned around and there she was, Shiramine-san.

Since her house is near here, it’s not unusual for me to see her here, but it’s unusual to see her at this time of day.

She has a lot of friends. Maybe she went out somewhere.

“What’s it, Shiramine-san?”

“It’s rare to see you at this hour. Hiiragi-kun’s not in the club, right?”

“Yes. I’m not.”

“Did you go somewhere?”

“Yes. I went to a café with Aoi-senpai.”

She came closer and stopped right in front of me.

“I see, that’s… Hiiragi-kun…”

“Yes?”

After taking a deep breath, she stares at me.

“Well, you know… Is the student council president forcing you to do something?”

“Forced me?”

Have I ever been forced by Aoi-senpai?

I look back at all the things we’ve done, but there has never been anything like that. The first time I met Aoi-senpai and went sightseeing with her, she didn’t force me, I just nodded my head at her suggestion. She didn’t force me to do anything about the college either. It was just a suggestion, and she tried to respect my will from the beginning to the end. As for today, I just nodded my head at her suggestion.

She never forced me.

Aoi-senpai just wanted to be friends with me. In addition, for some reason, she even tried to protect me.

“I was never forced by her.”

When I said that, she made a face like she was biting a bitter bug.

“I see. I see.”

She said that.

“Well, then, did you have fun at the café you went to with her?”

“Was it fun?”

Yoka and Mom had asked me this question before.

I remember they gave me an indescribable look when I answered that it was fun.

While I was wondering what to say, I suddenly remembered the face of Aoi-senpai who was with me earlier. She looked happy from the beginning to the end.

If Aoi-senpai and I are friends, then when I thought about what to say, I think I should say that I had fun.

“… I think it was fun.”

“…yes? ah.”

She said that, but I couldn’t see her face as she turned around.

After I left Hiiragi-kun, I went home alone.

I remember what Hiiragi-kun said to me. I remember his words that he was not forced to do anything and that it was fun.

Was that Hiiragi-kun’s words from the bottom of his heart?

If Hiiragi-kun is destroyed further, the possibility of me and Hiiragi-kun reconciling would be zero.

I didn’t know what was right or wrong anymore.

I saw the student council president looking happy with Hiiragi-kun at the café, but I felt more and more hatred and envy. I followed her, thinking that she might be trying to betray him, but what I saw was just such a scene.

But I still don’t know. There is a possibility that she will abuse, destroy, or trap Hiiragi-kun in the future. Lately, she has been taking Hiiragi-kun out to eat a lot. It’s not impossible that she might have said something to him.

Once I gave up completely and gave him to that woman, Kanzaki, but she betrayed Hiiragi-kun and made things even worse. It’ll be the same with her.

… I have to tell him about that time as soon as possible. Before the student council president destroys him. I have to save Hiiragi-kun.

I know it’s too late. I know it’s all my fault, but I have to do it anyway.

But still.

I want to make up with Hiiragi-kun. I won’t say that I want things to go back to the way they were.